So sad. So so so sad.

NTS

You can do this. Get MaD. Motivated and Determined.

The pressure for the next two weeks is too nerve wrecking for me to handle. #breathe #woosah #yougotthis.

Dear Lord, 

I am so scared. Please give me strength and courage to take it one day at a time. Please continue to guide me. I promise I won’t up, as long as you promise not to give up on me; which I know you won’t.

Sincerely, 

Me.

Once I have it, I won’t let it go, I certainly won’t give up, and I will definitely give it my all. 

For me and especially them <3. 

Please continue to guide me, to trust me and most importantly, have faith in me. 

I thought this fear would slowly fade away; instead, it worsened. 

Enough said.

I’ll always be jealous of you. 

I constantly thank God that you’re still right by my side

I don’t have to make sense to anyone but myself.

The point of no return.

It came to the point where I cried every two seconds. I let my fear consume me. I let my tears stop me from seeing clearly. I thought I had no one to turn to, no one to just listen. But just when you think you are in it alone, you are completely wrong. Especially through this ongoing rough patch, I am grateful. 

Please don’t let me lose that ounce of hope I have left.